back to babylon

and so the retreat's over. so is the weekend.

its back to babylon for most of us... (:


i could say retreat's been mildly restful... then again, take me away from this island any day and i'll call it rest. despite the 'work' that needed to be done for retreat, i thank God for the getaway, from work, from singaporean hustle-bustle-ness, from the rut of life. the opportunity to get away from work is a blessing. as they say--out of sight, out of mind.

but now its back into full swing. i pray i get my momentum back quick enough. honestly, feelings of de-motivation (is there such a term? don't ask the editor!) have started to set in since a while back. i feel like i'm losing steam. deep down, it feels like there's something restless brewing about, something just germinating. perhaps the restlessness is arising from some unmet need, some unfulfilled desire, some unknown dream..?

is He beckoning me to something far bigger and better than i've ever imagined or desired?


there must be more than this
oh breath of God, come breathe in me


yet, i don't doubt i am where He wants me to be right now. this shall be my motivation and strength in the present, knowing that i am well-placed by His loving and divine purposes. He sees the bigger picture, and He also sees the smallest details. nothing escapes Him. as a friend has well put it, doesn't miss a beat that One.


so, let me keep on keeping on.


hang in there, emily.