i need Thee.

i need Thee every hour
most gracious Lord
no tender voice like Thine
can peace afford

i need Thee
oh i need Thee
every hour i need Thee
oh bless me now my Saviour
i come to Thee


the song in my heart as i end this day.

the day's events have been a sober reminder that i need Him. really. truly.
not just every hour, but every minute, every second, every living breathing moment.

the frustration of unmet expectations, clashes of temperament and working style, big last-minute unwelcome surprises and perhaps, somewhere in the roots, the fear of disappointing, losing, crumbling, failing. all the 'big' things that need to be brought before a way bigger God.

in times of bleahness (for lack of a better, all-encompassing word), there is but one thing to do. to look to Him, place it all before Him and tell Him honestly that 'i can't but i want to'.

i can't carry on.
i can't do this anymore.
i can't see the meaning and purpose.
i can't understand.

but...
i want to do Your will.
i want to obey You.
i want to be the person You call me to be.
i want to be refined through this.


the feelings of happiness or relief do not always pour in immediately after. there are still thoughts and feelings aplenty to contend with. but, somewhere in the process of laying down, and simply desiring the better and just getting going, He does His work of patching, chiselling and restoring.

and He's still patching.
still chiselling.
still restoring.


truly, i need Thee every hour, most gracious Lord.